This is a training for English free writing, so don't take them serious.
To keep motivated in learning English is harder than I'd expected. I had a lot of things to do yesterday. She's out sick two days in row. Kids are running around in the living room. I often have my smart phone lost in the house. It would be fine to water plants just when they look drained. It's her advise she told me before she got back to her hometown. The company tells us not to come to the office due to the pandemic. The meeting is ready and possible to start just you come to the meeting room. This is a glitch of the system causing the downtime yesterday, you know.
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Yesterday, I got vaccinated for the corona virus for the first time. Our company gave employees the opportunity of the vaccination. The place where we got vaccinated was in Tokyo. I saw several familiar colleagues there. We were silent because of the pandemic. The injection was ended within 10 seconds. There was no pain with me.
My tutor for today's English lesson told me to be aware of 5W1H when describing something. 5W1H is What, Who, When, Where, Why, and How. I usually make sure that I use 5W1H when speaking in my mother language. Last night the fire siren alarmed so loudly that my son wasn't able to get asleep soon. That last for an hour. My neighborhood was historic against any noise, so it reminded me of her. My sons often fight against each other for toy train. The younger boy takes the older boy's creation, and the older boy shouts and cry. I was not able to bear with them, so I cleaned all the mess in their playing room. The older boy made similar creation within an hour though. My wife was the opposite to energetic. Her laziness often irritates me. I have trouble with dealing with all stresses with me. I had a weird dream last night. In the dream I attended to some camp and met a high school's classmate who I've wanted to met for a long time. I won't talk too much, but I behaved creepy in front of her. After waking up, I disappointed myself. I woke up at 5:30 in the morning. No one of my family hadn't woke up yet. I started to consider why I dreamed it. The answer is clear; I became weird because of the stresses. The stresses coming from work and family have been accumulated for days and months, getting me to look for something happier. I come up with an idea as well that I might forget how much I appreciate to my wife. I kissed and hugged her just after she woke up.
It's been rainy outside all day long. We refrained from going out, and stay at home today. I am still struggling with the way in which I take care of kids. They probably have some stresses as much as I have, but I don't know how to lead them to the right way. I've continued learning English somehow, though not becoming better. Maybe the reason is clear; I'm too busy to keep learning and improve the skill. Dealing with family, RPA, AWS and English is much enough to spend 24/7. Working with anger is not good for me and others. Our projects as well. I know it, but I cannot help getting mad at them. This is not an training, but a real work. Our outputs affect on operators. That is, if outputs are good, operators will be glad to use. The opposite is also true. It is too tough for me to take responsible for all of them. While I am on the side of engineers, on the other side, management and operation of our company. I do not rely on their output, process, or opinion any more because I suffered many troubles that they caused. I was tired of submitting reports of system failure. I have apologized to a lot of customers on behalf of them. That is enough. I do not work to make up their mistakes. I am disappointed at them, and there is no word to cover them up. Stay professional.
The younger son woke me up at 6:50am. It was 10 minutes earlier than when I usually get up. Maybe because he went to bed early last night, he woke up early. He made noise while he's walking, therefore the older son got up just after him. My wife is usually asleep when the others wake up. I can say I get used to the circumstance, or I am tired of it. I prepared for some pieces of bread for them. They want to eat just after they wake up. They really like sweet bread. I am not good at cooking, neither I do not like cooking. That is why breakfast I serve is always very simple. Just some pieces of bread and a cup of soup. A Monday is disappointing at me. I cannot help proceed handful projects. The vendors makes a lot of mistakes, which often cause system failures. I am tired of reporting ones every time. I noticed that the very negative tasks make me disappointed. How can I change my mind? Well, to retrieve my stress out is important, but how? I am struggling to lower the number of their mistakes, though it would not be appeared better. I got mad when I review the system test planning at 5:00pm. My position is far away from fun. Any quality of their output are terrible. I am exhausted from covering their failure. I am not their parent! They never understand like a kid. So stressful, no vision can be seen yet. I put my effort on projects too much. Too much! I could say I hate them. Is diary a good way to make stress out? I looked after my wife today as well, because she is almost getting down. Two sons started fighting as usual. No peace is here. I would like to be alone sometime. Well, it is a good timing that we live apart for a while. I will have a chance to change my mind. I am excited to plan free time while I get calm. Watching baseball matches, drinking and eating out, watching movies, playing video games, 10 days can be a glass half full, or a glass half empty. I want to enjoy myself for these days. Helpless diary, though better write than never.
I've taken several kinds of business English lessons these weeks. There are many common phrases that I don't know, so it takes a lot of energy of me to learn them.
Today was rainy, so we stayed at home all day long. My father and mother visit our house, meeting and playing with my small kids. To keep write down diary every day is tough for me now. I have few things that I like to write. Time flies and everything around us passes by rapidly though. My wife and I decided that she and our sons will stay at her parents' house until the older son will enroll the kindergarten on April 12. Both the sons will go to the nursery school while they're staying there because of my wife's depression. She has no longer room in her mind to take care of two young kids all day long. I work remotely at home, but I cannot take after them while I'm working on working hours. It'll be ten days for us to live apart, and it'll be the fourth or fifth times since last year. Last time we had a hard time to keep our motives for everything. We'd stood living far away for six months and lived together again at the end of September. Our lives I guess get complicated and unique. One essential thing is that I mustn't get sick, or our family would face much more troubles.
Cherry Blossoms could be seen along a road today, so we went there to take photos for the older son's enrollment of kindergarten. He wasn't willing to wear his new uniform of it or take photos. I managed to cheer him up and took around 10 photos. The flowers were exquisite but I had no space to enjoy myself. For two weeks, I've been too busy to think over my stuffs. Preparing for the report exam of system architect being held April 18, working on a presentation being held next Tuesday, changing mobile carriers due to March 29, and packing stuffs for the short stay, are left behind still now. Anyway, it was a warm and calm day today. Our bots have a lot of features and are complicated rather than those being made 1-2 years ago. Despite of increase in variations of requirements for bots and occasions to meet them, we keep making use of old forms and methods. Why don't we change our way to adapt to bots which become better and better?
I thought today's meeting was meaningful in a way I intend to encourage the staff. The leader should have patience, faith, and vision to accomplish our roadmap. A lot of obstacles are to interfere the project proceeding. But don't forget, unless the leader lose their vision, we could possibly get over again and again. That is. We stayed in our house all day long because of heavy rain the weather forecast said. Because of the floodwater last Saturday we suffered, it is very natural to restrain from going out. Kids were bored of being at home without any excitement. I spent most of the day learning several subjects.
Considering my career, I should tell my thought to the boss at the next meeting. The supervisor of me told the importance of achieving tasks assigned to me. That makes sense, though opposite from pursuing my ideals. I shouldn't be passive or the situation won't become better for me. I've gave up many challenges for a year, but the attitude of challenges I believe is not wrong. Be confident, but not arrogant. Prepare well for the coming chance. I'll be able to make it. Woke up at 7am. Baked some pieces of bread and ate with my two little sons. She got up after breakfast, being as usual, then watched TV programs for kids. This is a routine of us on Saturday morning. The weather was not bad, letting us decide to go out for a picnic. Tomorrow will have terrible rain, reminding me of last Saturday when we were stuck because of floodwater in our city. We won't get out of our apartment no longer than one step, of course. Anyway, we had a picnic along a river, being 8 minutes away from home with bicycle. Kids were excited to pick stones. They were in it so much that we laughed together. I played with them day and night today. They should've had fun, I believe. Today was a sunny, warm and calm day.
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